When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's alright
When you're right here by my side
When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
been having weird dreams of late. probably a reflection of the stupid thoughts running through my subconscious mind. stop haunting me even in my dreams... your presence in reality is enough to disturb me... even dreamt that i was gonna die.. luckily i woke up awhile after that scary part, feeling grateful that i was still breathing.. haha..
the feeling of emptiness has been keeping me company recently. even after i spend time with friends, the feeling returns to haunt me when im alone. sometimes it's difficult to find someone to talk to, afraid that what i feel is just 芝麻绿豆 stuff to others, afraid that i'd be a pain in the ass. who will be there to listen? i dunno if im oversensitive at times. i feel insignificant and unimportant. as quoted from my friend, at the end of the day, nobody lives for another. i guess nobody actually needs me. im so dispensable.it's sad when you need someone but he/she doesn't actually need you. though it means that it is not unconditional friendship/love, but who can be so magnanimous to say that it doesn't matter when their friend/lover doesn't reciprocate? it's always a two-way street, isn't it? a balance of give and take..
craving for: *campbell cream of mushroom soup *sweet corn *tiramisu *bacardi peach/lime [stupid kby refused to let me drink... =( ]
